i seem to hear depression used much more freely and consistently. why is that? is there a pill for repression? because almost everyone i know is on something for depression. (myself included)
what is going on? seriously.
my friend christoph is in russia for the summer and he said the girls wear tight shirts and extremely short skirts. he thinks this is perhaps their way of rebelling against the strict rules of their society. it totally makes sense to me. i get it. you have to put it all SOMEWHERE.
are we perhaps repressed here, too? why do girls whore themselves out on halloween? last time i checked, alice in wonderland was not a hussy. but i get it-it is the one time of year where it is (oddly) socially acceptable to experiment with your sexuality through clothing.
its not just about clothes, obviously, but that is an easy topic to discuss. i remember being little and wanting to wear red rain boots over a creme slip and jeans and being told “it was inappropriate.” now, i grew up in the south and was raised my miss manners, so appropriate was a word used often in our household. don’t stick out. don’t wear white after labor day weekend. and don’t-by any means-wear anything that god forbid is going to attract ATTENTION to yourself. blend. be normal. don’t shake things up.
i wonder how many of us are really just REPRESSED not depressed.
i look at the little girls i teach. they don’t fuss. they don’t suck in or compare their body to someone elses. (i hope they can stay that way forever…) more is better. pile on the glitter. decorate your face and arms with henna tattoos and rhinestones. wear wings because it is tuesday.
remember dress up?
when did we stop playing? i want to dress up in some way every damn day.
if i don’t play, if i don’t dance, if i don’t get my hands covered in paint, i become sad. and sadness breeds more sadness.
i never have thought of myself as sexy. or even beautiful. i get the cute card and am ok with that. but maybe i should be looking at it differently. sexy seems to be this ONE speed that does not jive with me. does sexy need to be over the top? you see photos of women in magazines (dirty ones too) and so many of them-while conventionally pretty, seem to have a flat beauty. allison calls it dead sexy. like their soul have been ripped out and all that is remaining are vacant eyes and photoshopped breasts.
i want to be free. i want to experiment. but i want to do it on my own terms. i don’t want to be someone elses version of beauty. beauty should radiate. not be put in a box on a shelf labeled: sexy, cute, hot, pretty-in-her-own way, etc etc etc.
i am curious about your thoughts on this.
where do YOU feel repressed?
- I totally agree with her…what happened to our society?